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April 17 2011. The day finely reached after waiting for almost 3 months just to get this appointment. We don’t have any freaking idea yet about this IVF or whatsoever. The only thing we sure is we are prepared to discuss and willing to undergo any cases in order for me to get pregnant as soon as possible. We openly talked to the Doctor and discussed the reason why we consulted with him, and also discuss my journey about my fertility obstacle to my OBGYN Doctor that referred us to him.
The long discussion and so on took us about 3 hours. In the consultation with the Doctor, we discussed everything and he answered all of our questions. We got the knowledge on which procedures and protocols we should get with all the options and the possible risks of having the procedures. The Doctor explained everything loud and clear. We choose the IVF or In Vitro Fertilization as we believed that this showed us the highest rate to get this little peanut in our hands though it only assured us a percentage of 40% success rate but as what I said we should play the card which only end-up with two results the positive and negative output or shall I say Win or Loose. After hearing all the essential consultation, my Husband and I switched off this silent scenario inside the Doctor’s office. We said to each other that we should think the solution of the emotional roller coaster that started to strikes us by thinking,
1. Assuming that there will be a big chance of having more than two fertilized eggs waiting to implant in my little womb.
2. How many fertilized eggs need to be implanted in my womb?
3. How about the left over fertilized eggs? What will be the future of the un- chosen eggs?
The Doctor told us and trying to explain that the human body is made to carry one baby on her womb as possible, to the fact that carrying a multiple amount of babies is a very high risk of each health between the mother and the babies during the pregnancy. The other factors that need a dramatic decision to us was to pick the following,
1. To donate the left-over fertilized eggs to Couples that are not capable to have their own peanut.
2. To donate the left-over fertilized eggs to research for use in stem-cells in order to help those paralyzed people who have hardly moved their bodies.
3. To flushed them out or kill them all.
The above option that the Doctor hand us are pretty much hard and of course me as a Woman that longing and yearning so hard to have this peanut in my womb would be much harder to picked which one, and I don’t want to kill those fertilized eggs of mine that soon to be a fetus and become my babies. Though you said they are only microscopic cells a very darn tiny one and still a blood but still they are my blood they are part of me. And thinking of donating them to other couples would be harder for me too, knowing that in the other part of the Globe I have a Child roaming around! Who knows one day, knock on wood my child could possible meet one of them fall in Love and got married, hey small world right! Like my Husband and I. How should we know that a Filipina like me who’s living in Asia would be a Wife of a wonderful American which the country is far enough to reach? And knowing that we can donate it to Science is my option I rather want my babies to help other People who are seeking for a miracles of their lives at least they can helped them, than I will kill them or to donate them to those couples that has no more chance of conceiving own babies. Yes I could be selfish knowing that I should understand the feeling of having trouble of fertility but at this time my decision is final to donate it to the science which my Husband and I agreed with fully support and no hesitation.  |
| One was to make the Eggs Ripe, and one is to avoid shading b4 the Retrieval;) |
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| Injectables for Eggs Quantity:) |
I got my period for the second time using those injections and insertion, for the 2nd day of my cycle I started with this GONAL-F injection through my tummy for 11days which are the purposed is to provide my Ovary a quantity of Eggs. And together with that I also have this other tablet 5days before my period that I should have to take every day for 14days to provide the quality and to avoid the abnormality of my Eggs. Then I have to visit my Doctor for almost every other day I think for my Ultrasound in order to monitor my follicles how many are they, or are they matured enough to retrieve or shall I say are the eggs ready now to harvest. When it became matured last thing to do, is to make the eggs ripe, and to stop it by shading. After 11days of GONAL-F my Doctor, provide me this 2 injection. The 1 injection in my Tummy is to make the eggs ripe. And the other one is to stop the eggs by shading as what I remember. And opps before I forgot I also have this injectable in my tummy for 20days. 2days before the retrieval my Doctor provide me again with this injection to avoid the blood clot so I been injecting it with the helped of my Husband coz his one doing it for me until the 20 nights. And yes I got a lot of bruises and that’s expected.
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| Injectables unto my Tummy for 20nights! |
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| Injectables to avoid Blood clot! |
Eggs Retrieval.
Total of 11days protocols now here time for Eggs Retrieval I remember it was June 4th at 8am. My Nurse told me not to wear any Jewelry’s, no nail polish, and no make-up! What? Are you kidding me? Can I just put at least a little pencil lining in my dam tiny eye-brow please? Thanks to my Mom, I got my tiny eyebrow from her! Anyway I end-up to follow my Nurse instruction what the heck! This is more significant to me as I’m pretty much ready, exciting, and anxious, to bake a little peanut in my oven. But aside for those positive feelings I must admit that I’m pretty much nervous too, and my mind is thinking this what if’s again! What if it doesn’t work? What if the result will be “BFN” Big Fat Negative or shall I say again big Fucking Negative? Ohhh my God please no please. While waiting in the recovery room with my Husband I keep my faith so strong, I keep talking to God begging him to make this success because I don’t know if all the negative anxiety in my system goes up. But I know my positive energy are very high, my mind are now playing that I’ll be baking a baby in two weeks after the transfer. I keep on dreaming that my eggs will be healthy and it will be 100% fertilized by my very quality of sperm by my Husband and so on.
Time for egg Retrieval my Nurse took me to the Operating room now. I remember while the one Nurse talking on me, one of them injected me with Anesthetic on my arm just to make me full as-sleep during the entire retrieval, the one Nurse asking how old am I? And how she likes my Name so much then I started to dream because yes I full as sleep right away.
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| Knock out after the Retrieval! |
When I woke up I am already back in my recovery room, with my Husband rubbing my head, rubbing my arms, kissing my cheeks, kissing my forehead, with the word I Love you so much Darling. And opps before I forgot to state! Yes while I’m sleeping my Husband already took some photos of me, so I give him a good deal in there. Instead of answering my Husband a word back with I love you too! I answered him with the crucial information for me to know. How many eggs do they retrieve from me? My husband replied. I don’t know yet the Doctor will visit us soon, they are just waiting you to wake up. Just a few minutes the Doctor and the assistance came in the room, How are you feeling now Lourine? I said I feel fine, seems like I don’t get the retrieval. My Husband told to the Doctor that when I woke up first thing he heard from me was a question if how many eggs you retrieve from her? Then the Doctor response that my question is very common as most Woman who undergo the eggs retrieval, the first question they ask the minute they woke-up are the same thing I does. The doctor told us it was good they retrieve 17 eggs out from me, its kind-a just right because I almost over stimulate but mine was just fine. So I said wow! then they step out the room after a few minutes of visit. In another few minutes another Doctor came in letting us know that the sperm of my Husband was quite good congratulation after the cleaning and final process of the sperm it turned out pretty good enough so my husband and I said ohhh yeyy now ready to fertilized! you are eggs machine and I am sperm freaking machine.
After a few hours spending in that recovery room, now I’m itching to go home and sleep again as I feel to freaking worn-out, I don’t know but yes so freaking exhausted. We took the Taxi instead of the train as my Husband concerned on me. Yes his very worried of me. When we got home I crashed to my wonderful bed right away and again I full as sleep right away, woke up about 8pm because my Husband cooked dinner for me and I should have to eat. My Husband told me that I sleep for about 9hrs! Wow it’s just showing I am really drained out that day seems like I came from the Marathon of an egg retrieval contest hehhe.
The waiting period for the fertilization or the conception was about 5days after the day of the egg retrieval. The next day we received an email from the Assistance of our Doctor, with the good news that out of my 17 eggs 10 was already fertilized and improving lucrative, while the 7 eggs are very slow and slim. Every day we received an updated email about the status of our fertilized eggs from my Doctor, and seems like it’s getting lesser. Until the 5days we only have 2 eggs or the “Blastocyst stage” best enough to freeze and to transfer which has a grade 2 had enough cells, while the rest of the fertilized eggs or “Zygote” are not lucrative enough to freeze or to implant in my womb. At this 5days my tummy feels bloated already and feels like it’s getting bigger as what I’ve notice on it, I hardly wear my 26 size of jeans now or # 0 in western size. But my Doctor said assumed and expect to be bloated more in the following weeks specially when it confirmed my HCG positive or when it confirmed I’m pregnant. My Man Doctor said that my ovaries gets bigger because of the egg retrieval and also because I over stimulate, but there’s no reason to panic or to worry as this reaction of my ovary are normal specially during retrieval, and again no worries as it will goes back to normal in due period of time.
Eggs Transfer.
Here the excitement grows so high, my Husband and I prayed for the best, we arrived to the hospital by taxi, and made us so happy knowing that the transfer is now coming in few minutes. Were again in the recovery room I’m wearing my nighty gown, with my own sleepers. We’re taking pictures inside the room with full of joy.
The assistance brought us to the transfer room and at this time my Husband is with me and the process is only about 10minutes of transfer using the catheter, and a small tube where the egg is to use for dropping it in my Womb, the Doctor following or driving it through the help of the Ultrasound. The Laboratory personnel told us that only 2 eggs are capable to be transfer as the rest are not capable to freeze or to be frozen. So we opted to transfer only one and freeze the other one fertilized egg. Before the transfer we saw our eggs in the big screen until during the entire transfer and we also watched how the Doctor dropped our baby or the “Blastocyst” in my Uterus and it feels so amazingly fabulous. After the transfer I am quite afraid to move or to get up because I’m thinking what if it will fall down? Here we go again the WHAT IF’s! After resting in my room for about an hour, I hardly can’t wait to use the bathroom to pee because before the transfer I should have a full bladder so I drunk tons of liters of water, but again I’m afraid, so my husband assisting me in the bathroom. And I should check the toilet to, thinking and assuring nothing comes out lol.
We head home right after resting maybe about 2hours in the hospital. Now I’m in the house my legs is up, no house choirs, no lifting, no exercise, no walking for more than 1 minute, in short I am impulse for bed rest for about 2weeks or more.
2 weeks wait.
Two weeks wait seems like two years of waiting I am very anxious ohh my God! I can’t wait to test my urine by this pregnancy test I have. All I did was to pray God so hard begging him to grant our dream comes true to have this little peanut. I feel sorry to my Husband from working to support our needs, and then still working at home, washing clothes, cooking food for me to make sure I have food the entire day even if his at work, getting to groceries, and all the house choirs all he does plus taking good care of me, making sure that my office bed is ready, my books next in my body, my iPod, my mobile, my laptop next to me, my clothes is ready every day from shower, and everything is there next to me.
In this two weeks period of time, I already have this uncomfortable bumpy feelings, like heartburn every night, always hungry though I just eat, I’m craving food, every now and then I traveled to the bathroom to pee, and I’m catching my breath. During this time I can feel that maybe I’m pregnant now and I’m thrilled to try the pregnancy test but I keep saying wait after two weeks.
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| My budies when hubby at work:) |
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| Eating machine, my husband work:) |
After two weeks.
When we woke up in the morning my husband and I are so anxious can’t wait for the pregnancy test, but we opted to wait until his off work because it’s Friday so whatever the result after the Pregnancy test we can go out and have dinner to celebrate. When he got home that night it was 6:35pm we both in the bathroom and started to test, my husband keep on tracking everything so he has to video it whatever the result is. After I used the pregnancy test we put it in the plain clean top on our sink while the Video is open eyeing on the pregnancy test. We closed the door of the bathroom so our Noisy cat can’t play on it, and we stayed in the living room dancing very slow and careful, with a romantic music my head is on the chest of my husband while waiting the 10minutes result.
Result.
We open the bathroom so slow walking so slow to the sink and there we both saw on our 2 little eyes 2 line in the pregnancy test. My husband shouting YES YES YES positive, but I still can’t believe it because the one line is not very much cleared. So I doubt it! My husband showed me on the picture through Youtube.com and google.com what is it looks like? For me to believe that yes it is BFP or big fucking fat positive! Excuse my French folks! And then I started to say Yes it’s true I’m pregnant now thanks so much God. Then we started to take some photos together with the picture on hand of our baby Em- as Embryo the next day we went to the “Lekarna” or Pharmacy because I’m hard headed still wanted to get another pregnancy test so I brought 2 pregnancy test and tested right away. Again yes it is Big Fat Positive; until my Doctor confirmed that yes I’m pregnant by testing my blood for the HCG.
This is end of this article, and again please stay tuned reading the next article of my journey which is now I called the journey of my pregnancy, you will see if the pregnancy carried full term or something happen. I wish you having fun reading this article, and I wish that I could possible contributes you some knowledge about IVF, and if you do have some queries please don’t hesitate ask me as you want as I really wanted to hear from you, and your word is highly appreciated. Again have a Blissful one y’all folks.:)
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| The minute Hubby saw this made him so Happy, i'm not content coz it's kinda not clear! |
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| I'm not content to this result coz 1 line was not that cleard! |
By:Yen-Yen
Have a sexyful, bountiful, wonderful, and blissful day folks.:)
